We've been through a lot after graduation, break-ups here and there, landing a job, resigning, getting kicked out, rekindling old fires, waiting for that someone, waiting, getting rejected, work sucks, and other same old same old bullshit. Yet, we've sticked together like brothers. After almost 10 years we are brothers. Yeah, its been fun, good times.

I came across Junie's shout-out, "Study or Steady, Steady." BNG or steady, both words commonly used with or without any meaning. At first I thought it was just a phase, because we all thought we've been there and done that and now there's just nothing left but to unwind. Yeah goddamn right. Then people start complaining that its all downhill after grad, law school's just eating up our time, our priority now is work. Nothing's wrong with setting our priorities. Yet, I've noticed that when we get together, its like life has been sucked out of us. Dont get me wrong, we still enjoy each other's company, and you are the only group of people whom I consider as family. So what shit am I talking about? You guys seemed to be too much content. Where's the fire, the crazy things out of the blue, spontaneity, the road trips, getting wasted just for the hell of it, being childish, spending late late hours talking about stupid things, getting high, and getting high naturally. Everytime I get together with you guys, I see one thing, monotony. And don't give that fucking excuse that you're matured now. Tangina, I'm tired of hearing that bullshit and I'm tired of hearing the word steady. You're not steady, you're just fucking BORING!!!

Ask yourselves, I know that each one of you still longs for the glory days. The glory days are dead because of you! You think you're settled and you're just going with the flow, BNG di ba. And now because you're "matured", "settled", and "steady", there just nothing new that life has to offer. Or you just wait for something good to happen while waiting for days to pass like a lazy sunday afternoon. So when you grow older, don't blame you're hang-ups on everything that transpired around you because its all your fault. Steady, I hate that word. Its one thing to be steady but its another to put yourself on that constant state. Tangina, dont you guys want something more out of life? Then don't be afraid to take new risks, to fix your flaws, fight your insecurites, not be content and always aim for your personal growth. Have you ever achieved any of your dreams? Wala pa nga sa simula, settled na daw ampotah! I want to bring back the glory days. That could only happen when each start to appreciate the new things in their everyday, when you learn not to give up on the challenges of life, and when we are finally happy because we finally conquered ourselves. I'm not talking about something grand, but maybe we could pull each other to that path and start to love the simple things in life and crave for anything it offers.

How come we never have quite made a D grand party, because everyone is just sitting there and expecting while not moving forward. You can't be just content and settled with what you have right now, they hinder growth. Stop thinking about the future, focus on the present, do what makes you happy, take another risk, fix your present self. I'm saying this because everyone just seem to be too fucking boring. All you do is complain while in reality you're rejecting you're own progress. Kung torpe ka, try talking to a complete stranger, kung mareject ka, at least you tried, then try again. There is no more fun because life has been sucked out of us. And this concerns everything and will reflect on anything that we do, whether about school, work, relationships, and goals. Once we aim for that thing that makes us happy, everything conspires for goal. Then unconsciously we start to evolve, change ourselves, fight our flaws and fears to be able to survive that path. Even when we fall and be disheartened, we will remain true to that goal, because we grow and gain wisdom from hardships. So don't give me that goddamn bullshit that you are martured! Everyday's a new day to grow. So when we follow our goals(kahit gano kababaw) and set up a path to happiness, we can start to enjoy the simple things in life and would not be afraid to try out the new things in life. Imagine that, everyday would be a party. So, when we get together, it wouldn't be just same old same old. It would be like a natural high, maybe the elusive D grand party.

And for my words not to be empty at para hindi ako magmukang hyprocrito, I would show by example.

 Tangina, ayoko na makarinig ng steady, I promise you sasapakin ko magsabi nun.

growing old too fast? you're not growing, you're just becoming old!

Let's bring back the glory days, there's still hope.

Currently reading: The Alchemist, read it fucks!
Currently feeling: infuriated

first off, outing, outing? dmen exclusive? as if pwede.

second, corny mga hirit sa bulletin.

third, tama na steady. unproductive at hindi din naman fun. i mean, ok lang na nagkikita, naggagaguhan, nanggagago... ayos naman un eh. pero lately parang wala talagang plan. nawala na ung spontaneity. boring na ba tayo? parang. dahil ba sa work? ulol, c poy lang cguro. at madami pa din naman nagaaral eh. si jun, well, no need to explain.

narealize ko kasi, olats maging tentative sa mga bagay2. ung keeping that come-what-may perspective. kelangan maging mas aggressive, mas decisive, mas confident in everything, sa work, meeting new people, relationships, etc. para bang kelangan talagang sundin na ung sinabi sa dead poets society. CARPE DIEM. seize the day. may experience ako sa work na dapat sineize ko na ung opportunity habang maaga pa, tas ngayong late na, dun ko lang marerealize na kung may gnawa ako and hindi nagwe-wait around for something to happen eh di ayos sana! haha. pero ok lang, no regrets. realization lang. ngayon puro yabang lang ako sa friends sa office, spewing confidence and bravado, pero sa totoo, wala, shy, to-torpe2, wala naman talagang mapagyayabang. well, NO MORE! madali sabihin pero sa totoo, kaya. kaya naman talaga eh, dboys tayo eh. best-looking hs batch that comes around only a few times in a generation. haha. ulol, seryoso ako gago.

ewan ko ba, pero para sakin parang naging stagnant tayo eh. ewan ko kung dahil hindi tayo nag-expand that much during college, or dahil puro lang tayo panggagago ang inatupag. pero hindi na kasi pwede ung se-steady steady eh. parang walang mangyayari, hindi magdedevelop. if we are to become better, we must seize the day, and not wait for it to come.

ewan, fuck it. actually, hindi ko iniisip tinatype ko eh hehe.

tsss.

last note... paw, chick-out, chick-out? hehehe. jun, tangina, utang mo... w8 pota malabo na ata ah. uh... may zamba ba this month? text nalang. BNG. oops wag na nga pala BNG. bahala na nga...

cge

last na last, my old posts sux. baklaan. pero dbale. fuck.

cge

Currently listening to: FOB
Currently reading: this fucking blog
Currently watching: basketball
Currently feeling: flirty

Tagal ko na kayo di nakakasama. Sorry na, alam ko rin naman kasi na ako yung di nakakapunta pag may inuman or whatever. Sabihan niyo lang ako, pag pwede ako game naman ako e. 

 Yun lang. See you guys around.

 

-dio