dayemdisshit!

tuesday evening lang kami nagkakuryente, thursday AM pa nawala. iba friday meron na puta.
also, still no smart broadband as of today.
sa mga bumati sakin, salamat! Jun and Red up next!

so ano? wala. walang magawa. boredom na talaga. some stuff on my mind pero wag na dito ilabas. dba doughby? kayo musta?

oonga pala, tangina talo amputa. malas kasi iba jan eh. nice seats nga, olats naman. useless. hehe joke lng poy, thanks henry. ina niyo!

dough? jun? red? dmen pics! at ung maskuman na ringtone natin. hehehe.

next week baka magstart nako sa trabaho. fuck. then 3 years akong tied up. oh well. "software engineer" motherfucker. ano yun?

sese. next time.



right on dough, eto lng forever and ever babeh!

EDIT: and another thing, putangina, friendster ko pala si u-know-who na kamukha ni jeff chan. putangina. sonofabitch, delete, boy! out na talaga.

Currently reading: Friendsters
Currently watching: Real Training Camp
Currently feeling: Cheetos

i think nagkatotoo na sinabi ko nun. its all downhill from our impromptu dmen trips. Ive finally realized din na im too old to still be thinking about LIFE shit. This is the last time na magssenti post ako as a DBOY. one thing lawskul does, makes you grow old quick.

in a few weeks, 23 na ko, at hindi ko na tatakbuhan yun. I'm not really in a bad place, pero this is not where i imagined myself to be. Kaya sa tingin ko, to go forward, kailangan ko na mag letgo of a few things. Officially. Goodbye---

- to basketball, wala talaga akong pag-asa jan
- to music. the rockstar dream.
- to all my poser hobbies: poetry, breakdancing, swimming, skimboarding etc.
- to my sick sexual fantasies
- to the perfect model body

Thank you to everyone who made my childhood and teenage years so precious. i wana thank those who myt be able to read dis. thank you..

..to raf and my bros for giving me responsibility; to my mom for giving me direction, and to my dad for showing me where NOT to go;

...to monica de mesa and roby and all the others in between who taught me love, kilig and rejection,

... to the dgirls for everything we shared thats so mesd up
... to the dboys especially, for sharing my highs and lows. thanks to POPOY, for all the times na magkatabi tayo matulog at sa paglakad natin from holy to commonwealth, PAWIE, for ur condfidence in me at sa pagtuturo sakin na wag maguilty sa pagjajakol; NICO, sa lahat ng mga trips mo at sa picture naten as a gay couple; ISA for all the malalabong ideas and for that wet dream i had of you; SABOY for ur philosophy and dat sk8r boi cute dance; DANDIN sa lahat ng kamanyakan at sa iyong lame-ass writeup; BOMBI for all the stories and wheeeeeees; ERICH sa pagwelcome sa akin sa La vista at sa pagkuha ng INTERCEPTOR VCD ko; JEFF for the music and the C2s and for frenching GI in front of me (daymmm); JAK sa kakulitan at sa pagkahuli mo sakin perfectly nun sa hs Cr; SYBAK for all the times you made sense at yung pagtakbo mo OT style; DIZON for all our kalabuang male bonding at yung pinagsasabihan mo pa ko wag mag weed; and JUNIE for your company and yung priceless face mo nung sinigaw ni marcy na JUNJUN PUTOK! tnx na rin to everyone na hindi ko minention coz i thinkl hindi nagbabasa ng blog naten.

...and finally, to you. I leletgo na rin kita. thank you for all the sleepless nights and all the butterflies, for the times I was excited to sleep so i could dream of you, for being my inspiration to be a better person. thank you for making me feel insecure and confused and eternally YOUNG. you are my angel. I will never forget the love that we never had.

tnx to everyone! out of commission muna ako kase finals. happy birthday to me!

yeah, you're probably right.. everything had fallen downhill ever since our college graduation, so good bye to the good ol' times. well maybe we had too much of a good thing goin back in the "gud ol days", and now there's just nothing left.

tangina, everytime i think back, it just seems so long ago. its been ages since our graduation. but im not over it. bitin pa. i still want something out of life, anything, maybe a moment would help

i've been thinking about the same thing red. is this our final goodbye, wala na, tapos na, hindi na mauulit un. so they were just daydreams. yup, this is reality. and i've realized, outside ateneo, people can't really speak good english. kaya barok nako. the only ones whom i speak straight english to are malaysian and singaporeans, i cant understand shit. 4 weeks palang at nawawalan nako ng gana sa trabaho. to hell with work, im just contractual anyway. and no fancy words can keep this job from looking like a fuckin joke. im at eastwood and i cant even watch a fucking movie, no car because of the goddam parking, and they need to search my bag everytime i get in and out(para lang sa contractual). putangina, i cant find someone to relate to because im the youngest there, i cant cuzz, i act like a goodboy, most of them dont drink, and tried to open up once, telling them about my hit and run just to relate with their scooter accidents and everybody looked at me as if i was so evil may God have mercy on my soul. and at the end of the day im just too tired, without the promise of summer, christmass break, and sembreak.

enough of that. so i was thinking about what we guys had, because those are only things that can make me smile now. i was ready to accept all these, yes in way accepting was giving up. but i remembered our moments, just like the song, moments are my definition of paradise, "they last forever". they dont happen often, not all impromptu trips can produce moments, but they do create an impact and maybe turning points. they bonded us, made us cry, laugh, gay, busted, do something insane, high, crash, steady, love, break-ups, and be someone great or stupid. and whatever we are gettin into cannot take away what we've shared.

yeah we're gettin old, jaded by the endless reality of work and law school but we'll never run out of moments. there are more coming, and i know when mine comes, it will be the time when when you're all in it. when, we cannot tell but take this as a phase. we're like brothers and sisters, we'll never drift away. 8 years and more comin. may pay off naman ung ginagawa natin ngayon.

you cannot stop being a dboy, it would be denying the real you and throwing away everything we’ve been through. remember the scorpion story by castro. and another thing, we grow old too quick at least we've grown old together. thank you for the memories

we're still growing though

and now we have money, except for some of you

and we could still act like kids, we do look like college boys

so whats the rush

chamon! papainom ako sa sweldo ko!

Too old, need to let go? before you decide that everythings over, take another risk, a simple tos, a shot at the band, or something you've never done before. dont be like those lame ass adults with a lot of hang ups. Sacrifice but don’t let go. its never too late. pero sige kailangan mo talaga gawin un. para lang maisip mo na pwede padin ibalik ung dati kahit minsan lang. Happy birthday Red and Jun! thank you for the note book, that felt really gay.

1. bawal PORN

2. bawal WAF

3. bawal mangago (pawie/nico)

4. bawal babuyan (jandin/ dundun)

5. bawal mangago ng parents (aida, cora,ikos), kapatid, relatives, deceased relatives, mga ex (exception si PIE), helpers, drivers, mga kotche

6. bawal manglait ng bf ng isang edi

7. bawal bumili ng bata (pawie)

8. bawal pumatay ng pamilya ng street kidsc (RED)

9. bawal magpollock (pawie)

10 bawal KJ

11. bawal solo flight (dandin)

12. bawal madandin

13. bawal magkwento ng friend ng kavillage, friend ng friend, friend ng blockmate, etc.

14. bawal jabbar

15. bawal extra shirts

16. bawal leech (guess who)

17. bawal epal ( guess who)

18. bawal backstab / frontal

19. bawal loser aura

20. bawal maglapit ng bata kay pawie

21. bawal mangahas

22. bawal umutang (dboys)

23. bawal circle of trust

24. bawal di sumama ng puerto <-----nina

25. bawal malikot *jack

26. bawal magtulogtulugan *isa,dandin

27. bawal third wheel, MH, poy

28. bawal torpe

29. bawal sleepover

30. bawal mangcabo

31. bawal mangago ng look-alikes (yatco)

32. bawal mangago ng mga disabled

33. bawal tumohs (except jack)

34. bawal dead-end

35. bawal sex

36. bawal mang-iwan

37. pwede mamigay ng Pajero, hehehe

38. bawal spice-up

39. bawal freak

40. bawal downer

41. bawal psycho

42. bawal fulogs....

43. bawal vain

44. bawal user

45. bawal hindi nagpapaalam si junjun

46. bawal magcut,magrepeat, makick-out, maprob, majunjun in short

47. bawal shabs - jun

48. bawal magsulat ng letter na hindi binibigay kay nico -isa

49. bawal magsulat ng mahabang post na di naman pinopost (poy)

50. bawal sundin lahat except #37

51. bawal umionom ng tubig galing sa bote ng ginebra

52. bawal ikaw lang mgcucum

53. bawal maging tatay

54. bawal ang kahit anong may gatas

55. except breastmilk

56. bawal tumambay sa naia 1,2,3

57. bawal "hey man!, tita, sarap ng pagkain niyo" sabay alis (jeff)

58. bawal hindi sumama sa inuman si nico!!!!!!

59. bawal magblock

60. bawal mag cellphone games sa puerto...on a saturday night

61. bawal ipunin ang limang jebs bago magflush

62. bawal mabangga sa valentine's day

63. bawal iswallow ang pride (RED)

64. bawal sabihin ang "kumain na kayo?"

65. bawal makipagtennis sa generals

66. bawal shotgun

67. bawal slagbag

68. bawal downer

69. bawal OC pag lasing (nina)

70. bawal OC

71. bawal paranoid and selosa

72. bawal tumambay kasama si gabe

73. bawal maglasing-lasingan

74. bawal iharang ang buhok

75. bawal double shirt

76. bawal all height, no skill

77. bawal all length

78. bawal magbalot ng weed using a rosary

79. bawal magprivate tutor (cabo)

80. bawal mag-cubicle

81. bawal mabore sa jersey girl sa gale (red and gi)

82. bawal magreminisce (RED)

83. bawal gayuma

84. bawal vetsin

85. bawal blackhole

86. bawal umulit ng bawal

87. bawal movement

88. bawal weeeeeee (bombi)

89. bawal insecure kay jc intal

90. bawal galawin o hukayin ang treasure chest

91. bawal magjerk (gayot)

92. bawal maghilaw na ngiti

93. bawal tumawa sa sariling joke (mark vina)

94. bawal magusap ng spanish or french

95. bawal magsex ang tatlong couples ng sabay sabay saisang room

96. bawal ky jelly

97. bawal maglotion (sy)

98. bawal mag keypol

99. bawal mag one notch before

100. bawal mag "bestfriend" strategy

101. bawal magbaliktad ng words

102. bawal magspill kay dator

103. bawal mag-cubao

104. bawal ginza

105. bawal sultan

106. bawal balikookoo

107. bawal magintroduce ng words, gaya ng kukurikabu (popoy)

108. bawal pakasalan si coach sandy

109. bawal magbody shot

110. bawal maghuman catapault

111. bawal corny (popoy)

112. bawal magc-c-c-counter

113. bawal mang-iwan sa tagaytay

114. bawal ganahan pag nag-online si nico

115. bawal mahina ang manok (ahem, nico)

116. bawal tropang fulogs warriors

117. bawal jemerson

118. bawal yellow na sandals

119. bawal i-video ang sarili habang nagseself-service (POPOY)

120. bawal gamitin ang ate...twice (popoy ulit)

121. bawal jastiin jemerick

122. bawal gaguhin c pawie kung ayaw nyo mamatay

123. bawal gumamit ng stuffed toy(popoy,red)

124. bawal asshole driver(pawie,jak,bombi,nico)

125. bawal feeling asshole driver(weeeeee)

126. bawal mangamoy ng panty ng ate

127. bawal user friendly

128. bawal hindi magpa-gas

129. bawal lagi nanguutang sa gf

130. bawal snapper

131. bawal umuwi ng maaga dahil tatawag ang nanay

132. bawal umuwi ng late si jun baka tawagan kame ni aida

133. bawal freeloader sa cs at philo(poy)

134. bawal nagmememory lapse pag umiinom

135. bawal mag v's(pawie)

136. bawal patungan ang UAAP tickets

137. bawal tumambay sa bux or seattle's nang di bumibili(all)

138. bawal spaced out pag nagigitara

139. bawal gamitin ang dimple (face and back) as sex appeal

140. bawal di labahan ang white cap na foldable

141. bawal ang never bumili ng yosi(bombi)

142. bawal mangamoy ng kili-kili(popoy)

143. bawal mag gobil habang may naghihintay

144. bawal mag gobil pag hindi kayo

145. bawal mag precum

146. bawal manlait ng mag hindi kilala(sy)

147. bawal hindi naliligo(popoy)

148. bawal division between dboys and dgirls kelangan equal

149. bawal sabihin ang totoo kay bombi(the ultimate secret)

150. bawal ma-purgatorio dahil sabog

151. bawal uminom ng tabasco pag lasing

152. bawal under(red)

153. bawal nagtataas ng collar

154. bawal naggrow ng weed sa sariling bahay(gabe)

155. bawal maging junkie(dizon)

156. bawal magcheat

157. bawal magkwento ng philosophy

158. bawal mayaman(gi)

159. bawal magwalk-out ang babae pagkatapos maghubad

160. bawal i-summon si little girl at si florence

161. bawal mainlove

Rules para sa Puerto o kahit saang banyo:

1: bawal hindi mag-flush

2: bawal maglagay ng tae sa drainage

3: bawal umihi sa tabo

4: bawal ipahid ang tae sa empty tissue paper roll at ibato sa tao

Currently listening to: im a nicolo, mahilig sa bato
Currently feeling: lasing!!!! wasak.