puta sino pumetex ng relo ko at ng mrt card ko? putcha, how jologs. mrt card lng eh.

tapos ung may mga utang sakin di pa nagbabayad.

may multiply nako. 022881 id ko. add nyo ako. what? what?

bad trip. emo moments.

nights are long and the days are so sad..

ano paw, jeff? chicks na? asan na? tara na! hindi, loko lang. wag muna.

nakakamiss lang, diba jeff?

jak, ano ba, ok lng yan. konti na lng. pag na-pressure kna ng school work makakalimutan mo din yan. o baka hindi din. pero ok lng yan.

poy... tsk, tsk. paimportante. miss ka pa naman daw ni bonark.

Currently listening to: Tony Rich Project - Nobody Knows
Currently reading: jobstreet
Currently feeling: emo

Sinong maangas?!!

dont need no fu**in frat to do this!

www.thepounder.com

yeah, stop! hammer time! wooohuuowaoohuuuowauuo! stop! hammer time!

Currently listening to: mc hammer the idol
Currently feeling: numb

Si poy at jun may trabaho na!

Si poy FA na sa PAL!

si JUN bodyguard/macho dancer!

 

Where's Popoy? 

Currently feeling: accomplished

Currently feeling: energetic

I am of the Compagnie of the Swan.

Someday the elite of the Rho Epal Delta shall rise above this self-made fog of mediocrity.  

Walking with the amicus curaei amongst the halls of Ateneo law, the venerable dean emeritus revealed to me my destiny.

"you are to stay behind the pangilinans and teehankees. hide under the veil of these so- called bar bets, sacrificial lambs at the front line."

he further annointed me as the designated sleeper, the one true wildcard  of the ateneo law. My task is to conceal my greatness, under all costs, only to emerge at the exact given time... September 2010.

up, san beda and ust think of my existence as a lore, and shudder when they hear my name being whispered...

but i exist. and i shall fulfill the prophesies.

the rankings are out... 1. Pangilinan, 2. Tecson, 3. Teehankee.... 17. jose ... 248. Pasio 249. Orillaza 250. Bandong.

dough, designated class goat ka daw. the next Mikey Arroyo. galeng!

I have spoken. So shall it be.

i remember it like it was yesterday.

a self-proclaimed "lord" of a distinguished and very exclusive club that only others can only dream of being a part.

he must have been so confident back then.

he might have been smiling when he said these words:

"we were fine without them, and sobra na hassle nga tayo sa kanila most of the time. we dont need dat shit in our lives! tayo tayo na lang, d good ol dboys"

"ayos yan, we loved them unconditionally, we didnt hold anything back. ibig sabihin, we got that out of the way. tapos na yung 'one great love' phase natin, now we can focus on finding our wives and corresponding fubus. its all for the best man."

"WARRIORS! thats wat we are! Spread your seeds Dman!"

these words were meant to comfort me, give me inspiration, to lift my spirtit and be able to move on with my life. back then, it did not work, did not help ease the pain. however, that does not mean there is no value to these sentences. actually, one will find the true worth of these words after some time of solitude.

So i give these words back to you, my good man, our bet to reach the pinnacle of law school greatness.  (no, im not forgetting you, dough, kasama ka na dun)

things happen for a reason and maybe this is for the best. maybe now, you can concentrate on law school and live up to the lofty expectations that have been placed upon your shoulders.

we know you are hurting, and some of us have also felt that same pain. if you really love her, you can wait. maybe she'll end up being yours eventually. or maybe not. but for now, live life, enjoy your singularity. we all know single life is much more suited to you anyway.

like you said, we are WARRIORS. So spread your seeds, dman!

Currently listening to: Maybe This Time
Currently watching: Click
Currently feeling: apathetic

Hehe. right back at me ampota.

I guess i have no choice then huh, eh di na daw ako mahal eh

ano gagawin mo sa ganun?

never take anything for granted

unlike that stupid movie, we dont get a reset.

spread our seeds? pwe. just goes to show you, tanginang sobra lakas mang gago ng mundo.

oh well, i dont have time to sulk anyway.  

life is like a game of triplejack, you get a reset after four days..

you get the losing hand 90 percent of the time..
then one day you'll get the best hand(ace pair)
you are shocked and excited..
nothing could go wrong, you are so sure of yourself..
luck is at your side..
God has finally blessed you with this one of a kind winning hand..
you played it good but you lost to a crappy two-pair..
once again you're broke..
with a million buy-ins..
and you just can't wait to get that reset..

but be patient
keep on playing
because one day you might just get that royal flush (royal flush club) 

and when you do, you'll realize that there's no need to reset

 

in this game, it doesn't matter how much you got or how much you lost, what is important are the points given to you

so play to score!
spread your seeds!
don't be afraid to take that chance
and go all-in

because when you win, you would have screwed those who called

Currently watching: click
Currently feeling: lazy

Thats so right.

Life is just a game of chance. There is always a risk.

You can always bet or fold. Checking is for fag-ass mofos.

But as our resident TripleJack Master says, you cant be afraid to take that chance.
You'll be fuckin surprised to see you folded a hand which made a fullhouse at the flop, a flush at the turn, a boulevard at the river.

So whatever happens, happens.

If the gods are smiling down at you, your 7-2 offsuit will make a running trips at the river, beating the almighty pocket rockets.
If you feel like it, call, if youre not sure, go all-in. Don't check, you might as well have folded.

Play to win, dont play for fuckin' fun.

Tulad ng sinabi ng karamihan ng TJ people na lagi akong pina-pie at minumura because of my innate talent, "that's poker!"

That's life.

 

P.S.: Let's find ourselves some nice fields where we can spread our seeds! Puro salita wala naman gawa. Tangina nagkabali-baliktad na ang mundo ah. Parang mga babae amp. Jeff, wag mo na balikan yun. No dates! Na-play ka na, its over, done. Tama na. Hanap na lang tayo ng iba. 

Currently listening to: I Will Survive
Currently reading: The Notebook
Currently watching: The Break-Up
Currently feeling: everything that's emo

fuck alam nyo ba na one is to five ang ratio ng boys to girls? plus i keep on seeing all these hotties wit resols. Am i missing sumthin here?!?!? im tired of spreading my seeds in tee-pees. maybe we should lower our standards or sumthin. walang asaran ah. or else wala na spill session... SIENNA HERE I CUM!!!

the scariest times in my life is when i'm starting to fall from the peak of my happiness. it's the time when everything's going wrong and you can't control whats happening. your helpless and your ego gets crushed. one min. your beyond the clouds, the next min. your down 6ft under..what the fuck..mapapaPUTANGINA ka na lang talaga and it hits you when you least expect it, dba red, sy?? but the exciting time in my life is when m starting to get back up, stronger and wiser..not knowing what to expect but ready to face things on my own. thats one of the most important qualities a person should have, the will and the courage to face new problems.. when your down, there is no other way but to go up, but it is still up to us if we want to get back up..some stay down because they're scared that they might not be able to face new and more difficult problems, but at the same time, you might miss out on something really wonderful in your life. madami sa dmen ang down, but i tell you boys, babalik din tyo sa peak naten, waryors tayo..LABAN lang! there is always BALANCE in this world. as long as we keep moving on we will reach that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow..no good will comeout if we keep dwelling on our emotions, TAMA NA EMO!!!! if bad things happen when we least expect them, so will great things..BAM BAM!!!

"I'm Not Crying For You"

Baby listen to me
I've got something to say
I have finally realized
That I'm wasting my life away
You've made so many promises
That's all you ever do
So now tonight I'm leaving
And I won't come back to you
Well, it doesn't really matter
What you have to say
Cuz' you know it won't bring us back
Won't bring back yesterday

Cuz' I'm not crying for you
No, no, no
I'm not crying for you tonight
So please listen when I say
That there's no way that I will stay
And know that
I'm not crying for you

Should've known that
Things would have turned out this way
Should've listened
To all the things my friends would say
How could you say you loved me?
Well, I know that wasn't true
You were never thinking of me
Cuz' you were too much in love with you

Well, it doesn't really matter
What you have to say
Cuz' you know it won't bring us back
Won't bring back yesterday

Cuz' I'm not crying for you
No, no, no
I'm not crying for you tonight
So please listen when I say
That there's no way that I will stay
And know that
I'm not crying for you

Making empty promises is all you do
You say that you will change
But it's just not true
So please listen when I say
That I must find a better way
There's no need for me to stay
Here with you another day
So just stop all of the lyin'
Cuz' tonight I won't be cryin' for you
No, no, no

And I'm not crying for you
No, no, no
I'm not crying for you tonight
So please listen when I say
That there's no way that I will stay
And know that
I'm not crying for you

Currently listening to: im not crying for you - save ferris

wow, tagal na since my last entry. old school. ive read up on your entries and well... ang loser nyo. punyeta. hahaha. putangina pare, antagal nang nangyari ng mga bagay kaya you better let go. breathe. puta. breathe in deep and reach out for that thing which you've always held on to even before the dawning of the women in your lives. your sanity. gwapo naman kayo eh. oo, generally, lahat tyo may itsura naman. sige, ill bite the bullet and say na ako na pinaka panget satin (ngayon lang to mga pookiengena nyo). so why dwell on misery? on being fucked up? mahirap nga cguro and im not one to give advice lalo na sa bagay nato which has avoided me like forever- love. so what kung pinagpalit nila kayo? so what if they taunted you by asking you out sa candle lit dinner? pare, kayo parin yan. things wouldnt change. half a man ba kyo dhil nawala sila. well at least for me, hindi.
puta pare ako alam kong ndi ako gwapo. ive accepted the fact and nilunok ko na. pero alam kong ndi ako gnun kasagwa. khit sinong babae, sasabayan ko. tangena, alam ko ksi and kilala ko sarili ko eh. so why would things be any harder for you? macho ka naman, may itsura. ikaw matangkad ka naman, maputi, makinis. pag nakulong nga tayo re rape in kita eh. so yun lang. wag nyo hayaan hawakan nila buhay nyo. ang happiness nyo. and security. alam ko naman hindi eh. pero baka lang maging prone kyo sa fact na yun. mahirap yan. pwede nyo ibato to sakin one day if ever magka gf ako tas mgbreak kmi or ma basted na naman ako (yet again) pero isa lang sasabihin ko sa inyo. know yourself. know yourselves well dhil yung identitity nyo, kahit kelan hindi kyo bebreak an nyan. you're good men. actually lahat naman tyo. kahit si poy or si jun. well cguro good boys sila. pero i know you naman. you can transcend this shit yo! pare, kelan ba pinaka masarap jumebs? pag maduming madumi na ung chan mo d b? pag punong puno na. so ipa jebs nyo ung mga puso nyong punung puno ng pananakit. overhaul your hearts men. flush the shit out of your emotional system. pahingahin nyo sarili nyo. ung mga puso nyo. isa lang yan. wag nyo pahirapan. ikaw, bkt ndi mo balikan si ano? d ba dapat mgiging kyo na dati? try mo pare. bka meant to be... pero kung basted ka wag mo ko sisihin. hahahahahaha. ikaw naman, lumabas ka ng bahay, makipag mingle ka. masyado kang introvert.
nga pala, alam nyo nkita ko si ano (clue: inchik) sa ateneo nung isang araw. damn. old school. of all the places talaga dun pa sa school ko. anyway, i was able to hug her again after a long long long time. and alam nyo naramdaman ko? relief. relief na i dont have to be mad at her again. relief na after all, ok parin lahat. relief na ma realize kong minahal ko sya dati. so what kung hindi nag work out? minahal ko sya. no use trying to hurt myself by constantly telling my heart na i hate her. its over and done with anyway. dahil dun alam nyo, nakahinga ako. maluwag. mejo na depress ako sa fact na she WAS my blue rose pero ndi ko nasabe. pero mas natuwa ko nung na realize ko na she taught me a lot. dumaan sya sa buhay ko, nasaktan ako pero natuto. sarap pare.hindi sya ung "could have been" or "might have been" pero sya ung "the one who just passed by". labo no? pero alam kong she meant a lot to me. she still does pare. kung ndi sya dumaan, ndi ko na siguro binuksan at binigyan ng chance ung heart ko na magsabing "puta pare, tumitibok na naman ako. try natin magmahal uli." at un ung significance nya. im thankful. very thankful dahil dun sa gnawa nyang pagpapa iyak uli sa puso ko. tama nga si ys. at least i can look back on that part of my life and smile about it. sarap talaga. experience lang un. cguro un lang talaga purpose nga nya. kaya ngyon, ndi nako ngdwell sa misery ng fact na walang nangyari samin. masaya lang ako na ok parin kmi. we're friends. and khit ndi ko naman sinabi, alam kong alam nya. so ok na cguro un. kaya ngyon, pag may kausap akong babae, confident nako. hahahaha. seriously. ksi ung scars ng puso ko, pinagmamalaki ko un eh. parang battle scars. symbolic of what i have gone through. ngyon, alam ko na kung sino ako. where i stand. what i can do, what i am capable of doing for love. pookiengena baduy ba? haha pero serious to. ngyon masasabi kong "puta pare, dumating lang ung babaeng magkaroon ako ng connection and spark with, ill jump at the opportunity!" opportunity to get hurt again. pero opportunity rin for a first love. in other words, ready nako and excited nakong magmahal. cge na khit masaktan narin. ahahahahaahahahaha
miss ko na kayo d boys. wala ng tumatawag sakin ng "dough" sa law school. new friends. new environment. walang sense of belongingness ako dun. nakakalungkot. alam nyo bago kong nickname? CHUBSTER! punyeta. ngpapakamatay nakong pumayat chubster parin. its all good. panget naman silang lahat eh. hahahahahahahaha! may crush silang lahat sakin. mga putangenang mukang lupa. ahahahahaha!
cge un lang. na miss ko lang mag type. hehehehehehe. always remember rin na it is by living life that we make it. its not by making life that we live it. masaya ang buhay my dear boys. its full of love and sadness. thats what makes it exciting (jun, baka ma misconstrue mo na naman to ah, tangena ka). see you all soon! love you all so much my boys!
fuck ass bitch, ndi ako bakla ah! ok?! mwahmwah!!!!!! :p

Currently listening to: gallery-mario vasquez
Currently reading: revised penal code
Currently watching: my hylyter run out of ink

hey men! correction lang dun sa entry ko na ang title is "no way but up"

dapat ang first line ay:

the scariest times in my life is when my hair starts to fall from the peak of my head..."

ok? tnx men!

-jeff

Currently watching: my hair make lagas

..for betting on my gaddamn luvlife! pero matatalo kayong lahat this time mga gago! sana maranasan nyo rin mahiritang ng ganun! sa lahat ng kinwentohan ko tas pinagtawanan pala ako PAKYU! maguilty kayo!

i will not be depressed as hell and senti mode like ...
hindi rin ako mag rebound- tripping like ...
at lalong hindi ako magpapa-trap sa whappak like...

hindi na rin siguro ako magpapa low self esteem,
or mag sesex trip,
or mag all- by- myself na trip.

lalo ko naman hindi gagayahin si JUNIE na BITTER at INTENSE! ("BECAUSE ITS TRUE!!!!")

magsteady na lang ako. then baka bumalik yung dating RED na self-centered and selfish and MASAYA ALL THE TIME! To hell with your advices. hindi naman gumagana eh! ndi ko naman kelangan ng pukinang inang babae para sumaya. e di mag ipon na lang tayo pang AZNIG. Di ba dough?

i wana beach sa sembreak... naramdaman ko kanina sa class. humihirit nga ao sa kanila ng hirit ko sa inyo. "Antipolo? Tagaytay? Batangas?!?!" kung may pumayag kanina pota andun na ko ngayon. tara na beah tayo please! i really need my ariannes ryt now!

Currently listening to: back to you
Currently feeling: sleepy