Dmen

taena chong,wala nang ngu-update dito ah.wag nyo patayin to.since tnatamad naman kyong lahat.ako muna.paepal.

puta,ano ba tlga?haha.i mean, isip ako ng isip.process ng process.ndi ko na alam kung anung kelangan kong ipasok sa utak ko para lokohin ung sarili ko na ok lang ako.na kaya ko pa to.we dont talk anymore. not naman at all pero not as much.not as much as we used to. i miss her na tlga.pero ang tendency ko is to veer away para ndi nya mahalata.i mean, bobo na kung bobo pero the last thing na gs2 ko is for her to find out.not cguro now. pero tangena,sobrang effort kaya ung ginagawa kong paglayo sa kanya na everytime nalang mkita ko sya, kunyare may tinetxt ako or may kinukuha ko sa putangena kong bag. pag lumampas na sya,yun. pucha patay na.isip na naman ako ng isip. kung dati un,id give her a hug and kiss and would not let her go until nakapag-usap kmi ng khit konti. and for those few minutes na mkikita ko sya,mahahawakan,mayayakap,masaya ko.buo na araw ko.khit nga buong week minsan eh.pero ngayon,ewan. nhihirapan ako ng solid pero wala lang.lagi ko nalang sya pinalalampas.wala na ung closeness and warmth namen.parang normal friends nalang.gnun. ang sakit kaya.ako siguro ung tanga.pero on the "brighter" side of things,tingin ko tama na rin ginagawa ko.cguro lang.kasi sobrang ngiging unfair narin ako sa sarili ko sa gnagawa ko this past few months.imagine,iriri-sk ko lahat for someone who's madly in love w someone else. hahahaha.ewan.usually, i'll just jerk this shit off.tas tapos na.pero iba nga sha eh.sobrang putangenang iba from everyone else.o baka ako lang nglagay sa knya dun.na ako lang ngisip na gnun sha. pero puta tlga,if she could only see tlga.if she could only feel.ewan.haha.lagi kong sinasabe na "dont think!feel!" pero anung ginagawa ko ngayon.sobrang deep reflection na left out na ung puso ko.hahahaha.potaena sorry ah.corny na kung corny pero i cudnt talk to u guys straight up.maglolokohan lang tyo.bke maiyak pako.its just that im so lost ryt now.pwede ko ilagay sa isang tabi pero i cant help but think about her.sorry boys.shit just happens.i got struck eh.struck hard tlga na ung impact nya,khit ndi ko sya nkikita,nararamdaman ko.kung pwede nga lang tlgang utusan ung puso kung sinung mamahalin eh no?hahahaha.sorry tlga.this aint me!this aint my shit.siguro ipanggagago ko nalng!lulunurin ko na lng with my laughter and shit.sayang lang panahon ko.hahaha.cgecge.un lang! ;p

Currently listening to: eric benet/mario/avant
Currently feeling: thirsty

Dmen

...and iv'e never been happier in my life.

Currently feeling: in love

Dmen

dmen! its break time again. lotsa stuf happenin, lots more to come. there's jun vs marky, the love triangles, the bloody accidents, the singapore trip, the grand D party(potah, kelan kaya kame maggive up dito?), the "all-ins!" and other stuff! share naman kayo dito sa blog!

Anyway, as for us, wer headin for BAlai kahit parang may bagyo. weve got our new wild hair-do's and new friends (aubrey miles and the jologskids), and our new "halubilo" trip. We've also got our new crush (fuuucckkk pare michealangelo's so HOOOTTT!) and new tambayans-slash-chillax places.

Jun pala has been experiencing milestones of sorts, he's just learned the "55 essentials to living great " or something like that in CCA, and pota he just wont stop quoting that shit. plus he gave flowers to this pretty but jologs girl in baywalk for trips, who said "thank you po" and smiled.

Nico's missing isa (yiheeee!!!) thas why were always out. as for me boys im ALL- right.  ask me personally for details.

See you guys soon! mizzyah po mga Dmen! muwahugzzz po! btw, were thinking of calling the new batch of dmen "DMen Kalawang". hehehe

Dmen

balai

it has awakened my darkside

my soul yieled to the darkness, i found myself again

death to carmellow

this is my path, to trust no one.

i didnt want to ruin the party so i made up that ok bullshit

i welcome u all to my world, succumb to hell, kill and die

fuck with me and follow my demented ride

i dont care if u all hate me, ill feed on it

my fuel, my life, i love it

hahahaha

Currently feeling: die